In the words of the slightly irritating, Miley Cyres, yes "Everybody has those Days".Funnily enough, mine seem to occur at regular intervals, basically whenever I feel that my life is at its nadir, and some other friend/acquantince/enemy/random guy who i met at a random party is having the time of his life.(Patrick Swayze, envy man :/)
As one of my greatest flaw, my tendency to dwell upon the futile to irritating extents, kicks in here and I start pondering on how I landed up here, and ultimately it all boils down to the samething, MY sorrow is not because I am sad at my own fate, it is because lady luck, chose to shine upon, "That guy/girl".As a matter of fact, there are few things which I regret doing in life (thinking I like bittergourd is one of them).
Does it sound petty?Yes.Does it sound childish?Yes.Infact it even sounds a little narcissitic, but THAT is an entirely different minefield, lets not go there.
So what makes us humans tick this way?The desire of happiness, I guess. I believe ultimately all our feelings which we despise, have their root in what we desire. For example a person who expects the world from himself, will never actually be satisfied. A person who looks to dominate over others, will never actually be able to become a leader, etc. Ultimately I would believe it all boils down to two things,1) how long you can carry baggage like this with you.2) How good of a facade can you keep up(including to yourself).
Ofcourse it is different for different people, If say my best friend qualified for something that he deserved I
would be ecstatic, not writing as if the world is my agony aunt :P.
So is this post immature. Maybe.Is this post talking about stuff that only happens to me?No!.
In the epic saga 3 Idiots (saga because I personally believe, the life of every engineering student is a battle that deserves its own, book/movie/merchandise)
The protagonist, and his best friend, are at first shocked when they fail to see the name of their best friend on the result sheet, but when they get to know that he stood first, the protagonist notes "Today we learnt something new about human nature, agar dost fail hota hai toh dukh hota hai.Agar first aata hai, toh double dukh hota hai" (the gist ) (If a friend fails, its sad.If he comes first its sadder.)
Does this mean I do not like that friend/random guy ?No What it means is I think "I just wanted more".I am pretty sure this would be a recognised social phenomena, occuring right from sports, to terrorism!!
I wish I had a poem for this time, but sorry!So let me just type a few lines randomly.
I wish for my friend success
I guess I asked the Lord in excess.
And now when he finally grants my wish,
I feel as if I have been stuck with the stinking fish.
the primary target is my fate, and its aim.
Funnily enough I know how this works, this discrepancy
had I been my friend, and my friend me
the same thing would occur , the irony I swear would not be lost on him or me!
